The Path

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

it's almost a year. maybe another 1 month and 11 more days.

time flies really quickly. but i still cant forget you. I really need to move on. I really do.

I am hurting myself by still viewing your blog, viewing your facebook, viewing your friendster every single day. I did tried to force myself not to view. But I just can't stop.

To many of my friends, I may seem stupid to still clinch on to the past. But its not as easy to be said than done. Thank you for those who always keep by my side, making my day bright every single day. I may not be as jovial as last time, but I will be back to my happy state one day. I promise!

Thank you, yihao clique. (with estelle, jeremy, deborah, jersey) really thank you.

Thank you, ben quek. (thank you for playing dota with me, thank you for going out with me)

Thank you, chen han, umesh, jonathan and jian wei. (to jian wei: thank you for your movie treats. thank you. I will never forget.) (to jon: I know i always blame you for not playing well, but I never once looked down on you. I will play dota for you if you get bullied, I will I promise) (to umesh: will keep playing dota. thank you for calling me god of dota. but i am not a professional player.) (to chen han: you are a good person. fight for your love!)

Thank you, jessica. (for being by my msn, whenever I am feeling down. You always talk to me, keep my occupied. Thank you)

Thank you, Gyver. (for bringing me around to have fun. thank you. when i am free, i will call you and let's go out tgt)

Thank you, Chermine. (for always talking to me to keep me happy, although i don't like you saying that im talking to jiejies or meimeis. I am not okay! thank you ball!)

Thank you, Johnny Lau. (for always telling me jokes whenever I ask for one or many. Thank you, Johnny I never regret knowing you. you are really my laughing medicine.)

Thank you, kk, jiesheng, tiffany. (for being a very good fyp team, I know there's still a long way down, but with you all I won't give up.)

Thank you, prankster JJ, zewei, peichen, kelvin. (for accompanying me every tuesday for lunch)

Thank you, Waizhan. (for accompanying me for almost every meals, and everyday back home tgt with yihao!) thank you.

Thank you, my happy friend!! (for always telling me not to be sad! for always talking to me! for always being busy!)

thank you, to Peiyi. (for teaching me, for laughing at me to make me laugh, for everything, for wanting to bring me out. thank you!)

I want to thank alot of people. but i'll cry or feel very sad if I continue.
thank you, pardon me alright. I will never forget u all.

lastly, I want to thank you. (I finally understand what is love, after you left me.)

to you: I am sorry, for being selfish. But I think this will be the fastest and quickiest way for me to forget you, to not be able to keeptrack on you, to stop looking at you, to stop missing you, to stop thinking about you, to stop everything. I know you moved on long ago but I can't deny that you are still in me. But I really have to stop myself. I am really sorry. :(
please take care.

i felt the pain when i clicked on the button. :(
i cant control myself to cry again. stupid lionel. :(

to all my loyal readers, this will be the final post I am writing.
thank you all for keeping track on how's my life. thank you!

thank you the person from australia, for viewing me constantly. thank you.

I will still keep a lookout on my tagboard. Feel free to write anything you want. I will reply when I visit my blog. Thank you!

with thousands of apologies.

5:29 AM

Sunday, June 7, 2009

life's a game.

5:28 AM

Sunday, May 31, 2009

i want to improve. i want to do a lot of things now.
diversification.

haha.

time flies. moments are captured in the stationary photographs.

3:30 AM

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

many many many days.
many many many thoughts.
many many many aches.
many many many misses.
many many many times.

secrets in the heart. wishes in the little hut.
perhaps its time to movee on. (:

trying to stay happy. I know it's possible.

10:06 AM

Saturday, May 16, 2009

a tiring day i had.

today i went to bedok swimming complex, and i swear i wont go anymore. its damn smelly! awfully smelly.

after that I went to bedok's Sheng Siong. OMG la. its very big! haha.

next next next, went to ben's house. slacked and roll around. HAHA. then went back home for dinner. okay. end of the day. dota-ing soon. i miss playing pool, but i just don feel like playing.

maybe it's just not the time for me yet.

7:23 AM

Thursday, May 14, 2009

i hope i can control myself, i need to keep far far away from her. i don want to make her sad. and i dont want to make myself sad too. i know i cant see her :(

i just hope one day she will want to see me. okay. byebye. moody.

11:25 PM

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

how i wish, i can really forget things fast.
why am i born like that! ha. ok. time to sleep.

6:20 AM