Friday, December 21, 2007
Happy 5th month baby
It’s been rather fast, that we have been together for 5 months already, I appreciate every thing of you, every moments we spend together and without you I don’t know how am I going to live off in my life and also who I am exactly, baby you thought me many things indirectly which I had never get to learn before.
I know I didn’t treat you very well, or should I say good enough, I am sorry but I promise, when the time is right or perhaps when we are older, I will give everything to you. Baby love tends to get worried about you, when you are alone or out with friends, baby love felt that he didn’t do his part well enough to take care of baby darling, but he knows that baby darling needs freedom, besides entertaining me; you have a group of friends to entertain too. I can’t be so selfish, just to keep you all by my side. I am sorry :( but sometimes I just can’t help it that I will keep worrying for you. I am really scared that anything bad will happen to you, that’s why I will pray for your safety everywhere you go.
I am really sorry that you have to acknowledge and tolerate all the nuisance of me, by making you cry, making you sad, I didn’t want to do that. I felt very bad every time I made you cry or sad. I really didn’t want to. :( I know that I tend to get jealous easily, but I will try to change. But perhaps that’s inborn in me. I don’t like being like that but I just can’t. Sorry. Sometimes I even think that I am not suitable for you, not a very perfect boyfriend for you or the most ideal one, thus I will sit somewhere alone crying out thinking why is baby darling given to me, when a boyfriend or love one should not let their beloved cry and yet I made you cry over and over again. :( That’s unacceptable. I didn’t want it. I really hate it when I make you cry for something. I felt bad.
Fate brought us together, and I felt that there is a need to protect baby darling, take care of baby darling, and love my baby darling. This belief made me stronger, made me felt that you are the one that I will need to take care for the rest of my life. I don’t know what may happen in the future, but as long as I have you by my side, that’s all I will ever, wish for.
Baby, the only thing I wish is for you to be happy everyday even without me by your side. As long as you are happy, baby love will be happy.
Time flies, nearing the end of December, reaching Christmas, I will want baby to have a happy Christmas celebration. :D I love you :)
I pray for baby to be the happiest person on earth. The most care-free person on earth, and lastly the most fortunate baby darling in this whole universe.
I love you, my baby darling =D
From,
Baby love. =D
jane stoled my heart. =D i love you.
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